Monday, May 16, 2016

DBlog Week: Day 1: Why Are We Here

This week is DBlog week, a week where bloggers use prompts to write about their experiences for whatever reason.

You can check out the prompts here.

Today's topic: Message Monday: "lets kick off the week by talking about why we are here, in the diabetes blog space. What is the most important diabetes awareness message to you? Why is that message important for you, and what are you trying to accomplish by sharing it on your blog?"


It's odd that this was today's topic. As I was opening my laptop to check out what the prompt was, I thought "I don't know why I am doing this." Honestly.

I don't think I have a particularly interesting voice to add to our community, and lately I haven't felt the drive to write like I used to. This is a very, very saturated blog market, as you will find out while browsing blog week posts. There are a lot of really fantastic voices in it, and I respect and read them all the time. 

This is not to say that I don't think that all of our experiences are interesting and needed, I think they are. I just think that taking the time to blog, for me, has been a trying effort. I have no less than 25 posts started and not finished in my queue because I get part way through and I ask myself "why am I doing this?"

Maybe it's because I am in a professional funk, after being part of a national lay-off in February, and not having a job offer yet, I have spent a lot of time wondering what I want to do with my career. The market is so saturated in my area, it is kind of similar to the diabetes blogosphere. 

That's why I haven't been posting as much. I guess I feel like it's a lot of energy, time and emotion poured in to something that just....is there. 

So I don't have an answer for this first prompt. I am still wondering the same thing.

I do, however, believe I will use my voice as a powerful advocacy tool. I have been speaking to members of government and other advocacy specialists on a few various topics, trying to get things moving.

But it's hard.

I am finding it hard to be motivated to do anything other than find gainful, permanent employment right now. I need a job that will give me some security because the employment insurance program I have been granted has been absolutely piddly and can hardly pay for my extremely expensive burden of student loans debt. It's a deep, dark cloud over my life right now and it's hard to be a light for others when that is my reality.

10 comments:

  1. Fingers crossed that your job hunt ends soon with a fabulous new position!

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  2. Job-hunting is stressful and unfortunately for your generation, changing jobs through choice or lack-of-choice seems to be a common occurrence. Sending hugs your way. Although you haven't been blogging much, your words when you do write are so powerful.

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  3. I never found work in the field I studied at uni, and I know how stressful job searching can be. Hope that things pick up for you in the near future, and look forward to reading this week.

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  4. Oh Alanna!!! I love you so much. I can respect you not wanting to write, but you should know I would miss you so much if you weren't in this space. I've felt the lack of blog motivation too, so I want you to know there is someone (me) who totally gets it!!

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  5. I'm so glad to see you here. Those funks are some of the hardest to deal with, but know that we have your back.. with good thoughts, positive energy, and prayer.

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  6. Alanna, I completely understand why you're finding it difficult to write right now. Side note: I think you'd be a terrific podcaster, if you ever wanted to do that. You deserve a position that matches your talent and your passion to help people. I know it will happen. I know.

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  7. Thank you for sharing that. It's refreshing to see such honesty.
    Hoping this week is enjoyable and brings back some of the best parts of blogging.

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  8. I get that. I have a very large queue of unfinished blogs, and I really have to feel passionate about writing them, or it feels pointless. I hope you find your passion soon, I'd love to read what you are passionate about.

    Good luck with the job hunting.

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  9. I so totally understand where you are coming from here. When so much "LIFE" happens at once, it's hard to focus on anything but the situation at hand. My blog goes untouched for months at a time for that reason. And that's OK. It's OK to step away and focus on what's most important in life at the moment. The blog will be here when you are ready to write again. Just remember, you do have a voice. And every voice matters. YOU matter.

    Lots of love and big hugs, my friend.

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  10. Regardless of whether you post on a regular basis, I'm glad you're here and I've been able to connect with you over the internet. Good luck with your search.

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