This week is DBlog week, a week where bloggers use prompts to write about their experiences for whatever reason.
You can check out the prompts here.
Today's topic: Message Monday: "lets kick off the week by talking about why we are here, in the diabetes blog space. What is the most important diabetes awareness message to you? Why is that message important for you, and what are you trying to accomplish by sharing it on your blog?"
It's odd that this was today's topic. As I was opening my laptop to check out what the prompt was, I thought "I don't know why I am doing this." Honestly.
I don't think I have a particularly interesting voice to add to our community, and lately I haven't felt the drive to write like I used to. This is a very, very saturated blog market, as you will find out while browsing blog week posts. There are a lot of really fantastic voices in it, and I respect and read them all the time.
This is not to say that I don't think that all of our experiences are interesting and needed, I think they are. I just think that taking the time to blog, for me, has been a trying effort. I have no less than 25 posts started and not finished in my queue because I get part way through and I ask myself "why am I doing this?"
Maybe it's because I am in a professional funk, after being part of a national lay-off in February, and not having a job offer yet, I have spent a lot of time wondering what I want to do with my career. The market is so saturated in my area, it is kind of similar to the diabetes blogosphere.
That's why I haven't been posting as much. I guess I feel like it's a lot of energy, time and emotion poured in to something that just....is there.
So I don't have an answer for this first prompt. I am still wondering the same thing.
I do, however, believe I will use my voice as a powerful advocacy tool. I have been speaking to members of government and other advocacy specialists on a few various topics, trying to get things moving.
But it's hard.
I am finding it hard to be motivated to do anything other than find gainful, permanent employment right now. I need a job that will give me some security because the employment insurance program I have been granted has been absolutely piddly and can hardly pay for my extremely expensive burden of student loans debt. It's a deep, dark cloud over my life right now and it's hard to be a light for others when that is my reality.