Tuesday, May 17, 2016

The Other Half of Diabetes

This is my day 2 post for Diabetes Blog Week. You can see the list of other posts on this topic here.

Today's prompt is:

"We think a lot about the physical component of diabetes, but the mental component is just as significant. How does diabetes affect you or your loved one mentally or emotionally? How have you learned to deal with the mental aspect of the condition? Any tips, positive phrases, mantras, or ideas to share on getting out of a diabetes funk? (If you are a caregiver to a person with diabetes, write about yourself or your loved one or both!)"

I think this prompt comes at a pretty interesting time, as I said yesterday I am currently in a funk about diabetes. I am taking care of my physical self the best I can, my blood sugars are pretty under control and I am exercising and eating lots of plants. I feel ever so slightly disconnected with it all. I am doing the motions but feeling like I am floating a bit. Normally I read and read and read about diabetes, research, and everything about the disease, but I find myself distancing from it lately. Maybe because my former job laying me off has left a bad taste in my mouth.

I think the best way to deal with being burnt out on care is two fold: remember the motions and do them, and lean on friends and family. If you are reading this blog, and are aware of DBlogWeek, then you know that you have an entire community standing behind you to support and help you through whatever there is.

Yesterday, when I confessed why I haven't been around much, I had so many people reach out to me privately to just chat it reminded me why I am here. If you need help getting through a rough patch of the annoyingly mundane task of staying alive, just reach out.

Leave a message on a blog of someone you admire, they want to hear you.
Send a tweet.
Join a Facebook discussion.

Be proactive for yourself, being able to speak about your experiences is important in dealing with chronic illness.

It's important to recognize that you probably will burn out eventually, and that's ok too. You don't always have to be "on". I am learning that quickly, when I was able to help others through some dark and stormy times in the past, those same people are able to help me now.

This thing is an ebb and flow. We give when we can, and we take when we need to. It's how our community survives and thrives and grows.

Be a part of it. You will be better for it.

Monday, May 16, 2016

DBlog Week: Day 1: Why Are We Here

This week is DBlog week, a week where bloggers use prompts to write about their experiences for whatever reason.

You can check out the prompts here.

Today's topic: Message Monday: "lets kick off the week by talking about why we are here, in the diabetes blog space. What is the most important diabetes awareness message to you? Why is that message important for you, and what are you trying to accomplish by sharing it on your blog?"


It's odd that this was today's topic. As I was opening my laptop to check out what the prompt was, I thought "I don't know why I am doing this." Honestly.

I don't think I have a particularly interesting voice to add to our community, and lately I haven't felt the drive to write like I used to. This is a very, very saturated blog market, as you will find out while browsing blog week posts. There are a lot of really fantastic voices in it, and I respect and read them all the time. 

This is not to say that I don't think that all of our experiences are interesting and needed, I think they are. I just think that taking the time to blog, for me, has been a trying effort. I have no less than 25 posts started and not finished in my queue because I get part way through and I ask myself "why am I doing this?"

Maybe it's because I am in a professional funk, after being part of a national lay-off in February, and not having a job offer yet, I have spent a lot of time wondering what I want to do with my career. The market is so saturated in my area, it is kind of similar to the diabetes blogosphere. 

That's why I haven't been posting as much. I guess I feel like it's a lot of energy, time and emotion poured in to something that just....is there. 

So I don't have an answer for this first prompt. I am still wondering the same thing.

I do, however, believe I will use my voice as a powerful advocacy tool. I have been speaking to members of government and other advocacy specialists on a few various topics, trying to get things moving.

But it's hard.

I am finding it hard to be motivated to do anything other than find gainful, permanent employment right now. I need a job that will give me some security because the employment insurance program I have been granted has been absolutely piddly and can hardly pay for my extremely expensive burden of student loans debt. It's a deep, dark cloud over my life right now and it's hard to be a light for others when that is my reality.