I am participating in Diabetes Blog Week (my THIRD one, whaaaat.) You can learn more about the week here and check out the prompts here. Make sure to give some love to the participants here. Today's prompt is CHANGES.
Ok. First thing is first. Thank you all who read, commented and shared my post yesterday. It was very difficult to write, and knowing that I have a lot of people in my corner really does mean a lot to me. I also want to make a note that I don't think being thin or average or athletic or....being in a body is easier for anyone internally. Body image issues are one of the biggest challenges for almost every single person I know. It's not a unique to me problem so mad respect for everyone who loves themselves or is trying to!
All I can think of when someone says changes is Tupac. I digress (but man, that song is GOOD)
There are two major changes I have noticed since my diagnosis 25 years ago. I mean I guess the medications have changed (no longer using regular and NPH for the most part) meters have changed (no peeing on a strip to check sugar) pumps, pens, etc etc etc. There have been a lot of monumental changes in diabetes since diagnosis but I think there are two that truly stick out for me.
1) Continuous Glucose Monitoring: Having the ability to see what my blood sugar is, how certain foods, activities, insulin, hormones etc can affect my blood sugar over all has definitely, without question extended the length of my life. Knowing and being able to react proactively to the roller coaster of diabetes has helped my body be the best for me. Being able to set insulin dosages based on trends in my blood sugars has absolutely given me a quality of life that I did not have before and for this I am forever grateful. I always think about the people who research and develop these amazing tools. If they aren't living with diabetes, are they genuinely doing it to make other people's lives better? I wonder if they know the impact their knowledge, curiosity and enthusiasm for their science has on the day-today lives of millions of people around the world.
2)The diabetes online community: There have always and will always be support groups for people living with chronic illness. The power of "me too" should be counted as medicine for some people. I know that there are days where I can browse through one of the hundreds of blog posts, Facebook groups, diabetes hashtags on twitter, instagram, tumblrs and I will always be met by an influx of people who are also in my boat. It sucks when you think about it, but at the same time it is comforting. Anywhere, at any time, you can log on the Internet and hear "me too." It makes me feel less alone in this fucked up world of blood sugars, medications, complications etc etc etc. I think this has been a big change for me, I am more comfortable fighting for what I think is right. I know that I am not alone in my thoughts and feelings on generally any subject in regards to diabetes. I know, always that there is someone on the other end of my laptop or phone that knows exactly how I feel at any given time-and to me that is life altering.
Plus, I can't even tell you how many amazing friends I have met through the doc.