You know, life isn't bad at all.
Sometimes I feel deflated at my efforts I put into things only to get a miniscule return. It happens, I put in a lot to projects, relationships and my personal (diabetes) care. I always grew up being told you get out what you put into something, but I have come to the realization that it just doesn't always ring true.
Coming to terms with the fact that I may very well put a lot more in to something than I get out of it has taken a lot of pressure off myself to achieve all of these lofty goals I set.
I am slowly starting to take power away from events, things and people which held so much power over how I felt about myself and it is incredibly eye opening and the self-realization that I am not awful at everything I do or try is really a breath of fresh air.
I won't get into great detail, since my year-end wrap up will include all of the details about my journey of taking the power away from my diabetes, but I will say this has been incredibly effective.
I didn't realize this is what I was doing until I bought Ginger Viera's book Emotional Eating with Diabetes
Everyone should read her book. Everyone. It has helped me put into real thoughts things that have really been helping me the past few months.
Ok. I am eating A LOT of candy and probably should go for a walk or something. YAY HOLIDAY SEASON :)