Wednesday, December 5, 2012

A mish mash

I have been trying to write this post for almost a week. I can't seem to get past a few sentences before I scrap the idea.

I wanted to wrap up Diabetes Awareness Month with an epic post about how I felt at the end.

I felt no different. I don't know why I thought I would. It's not to say I felt bad, I felt good about our efforts to be honest, but I always do.

The World Diabetes Day chat on the 14th was an absolute highlight for me. To be able to log in to any time of the day and be able to take part in a truly meaningful and dedicated conversation about real issues that people with diabetes face all the time was a great relief.

I started this blog because I wanted to chronicle my life with diabetes. I wanted an outlet to write, because I am so passionate about writing and I don't get the opportunity to do it in my "day" job. I didn't know what I was going to get out of starting this little tiny blog in a far corner.

This November was the second Diabetes Month in all of my 23 years that I felt hopeful. I felt that one day I may not have to live with this illness, I felt hopeful that maybe just maybe the words I spill out on to my figurative page may help someone out of a dark place in their life.

I would be lying if I said I didn't always have a diabetes community. When I was first diagnosed I went to camp almost immediately. I still have friends that I see regular that went to camp with me. I volunteer with them, drink with them, eat with them, and everything in between. I love my girlfriends (and guy friends) that I made at camp.

But I just need to touch on something that happened this week in the DOC that has floored me.

I posted on twitter that I would like a Dexcom system. I need one in fact. I have anxiety when I go to the gym or on a bike ride because my blood sugar drops quickly with exercise, and lately I haven't been feeling my lows until I am around 2.0. So I put the call out, I had an offer of an entire system in under 10 no cost. I am so thankful. For the privacy of the person who is sending me this system I won't post who it is, but they know who they are and they can rest assured I will pay it forward.

I still do not have extra sensors. One other person offered to send me one extra that they had (and thank you thank you thank you!!), but other than that I am out of luck. Does any one have any they could sell me or donate to me? I really just want enough for a few months so I can understand why I cant sleep at night because I am so low. If you can, contact me on twitter or through the comment section :)

There you have it. I am not even reading this post before getting it out there. It's disjointed. It's my wrap up of diabetes month. It's necessary.

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